hey hey, im back after almost one month.... work was kinda hectic and my dad threw on me his diploma stuff for me to do... sigh. at least i have time to do quite a bit of stuff for myself. recently, i started watching anime, avatar: the last airbender, which is by the way, the DAMN COOLEST anime on earth!!!! and my most favourite pairing (for those of you who know me well, will noe that i will manage to get a favour a pairing soon enough) is .......... ZUTARA!!! ie zuko and katara...
woah, can u find a better pair. zuko is from the fire nation, hot-headed and driven, whilst katara is from the water tribe, cool, calm and collected. they complement each other like yin and yang, striking the perfect balance. and to add to it, zuko has trhe bad-boy, underdog image which justs adds to his personality even more. lol... i find him totally HOT!!! i mean, i know he is supposed to be 16 and i am 19... but still he is like damn toned and he can FIREBEND!!!! isnt that awesome?? and also zuko has joined the avatar in his great mission to bring peace amongst the elements, which is yet another reason for me to fall in love with zuko... hehe just kidding. but, (there is always a but in everything), the avatar episodes are not coming up soon. so, i have taken to reading fanfiction on zutara. they totally RULE!!! i mean, they just fulfilled my deepest desires to see zuko and katara together, so what is the big deal with it, right? but hey, they are totally awesome!!! anyways, i think i have been ranting enough.. lol...
so shall, quit it for now, and take a small break.

P.S. by lord agni, if tui and la ever get seperated, the earth kingdom shall shatter and the air nomads shall die.

menstrual cramps are the worse things that can happen in a woman's life.... sigh.... every month we have to go through the same torture, time after time... it like a punishment for being born as a woman, for being the weaker sex of the 2. u can do nothing with it, but yet its not good enough an excuse, coz all the other women are working with it... sigh, all the women in the world should gang up to protest that we will not work or do anything else that is demanding , on the first three days of our period.. then, life will be a bliss... lol.. i sound so feminist now.
but really its just a pain in the ass, ok, maybe not ass, but still a pain. as i am trying to cope with it, so shall u gals out there too... signing off...

Death

death...
i wonder what it means
nobody has ever lived to tell about the story behind it
and nobody will do so

is there an afterlife?
is there heaven and hell?
will sinners really suffer?
will saints really enjoy?

its so tempting sometimes
to leave it all behind, to stop the pain
but theres no way back
its a one way street

some say, its the way to attain god
some say its the way to free yourself
but is it really true?
or is it just preaching?

some in the streets
some in the hospital
some in their own bed sleeping
whichever way, all walk through the same door to the deadland

we all know we are going to die one day
but yet we carry out our daily duties
cuz the only thing that keeps us going
is that we dont know when the time will come

i hope i go after i enjoyed life
we all hope so too
but while some are lucky
some are not

is it something to be afraid of?
or is it something to embrace with open arms?
time will tell
when the time comes for me

life is never without regrets

i see u crying all alone in a corner
tears streaming down ur cheeks, one at a time
u suffer to think about what u did that time
and i can only watch u from afar...

it pains for u tell about what u did then,
about how u left them all alone
when all they had was u, and only u
i try to console u, but in vain
its not ur fault i say,
we are the dolls in the hands of fate's play
but nothing can change what's already been done...

it pains me to see u cry...
tears start welling up in my eyes too
i turn away, not letting u see them
coz i dont want u to know
i regret for u too..

they loved u, u said
but alas, whats happened has happened
and its no use crying over spilt milk
only thing to calm u down, i say
life is never without regrets...

i think i probably sounded the same as X in the previous entry, bigheaded and full of myself... but one lesson that i learnt when i was in jc was that, always associate yourself with somebody of your ability of maybe even higher for u continue progressing. if not, its just down hill for you all the way... its not wrong to change yourself to adapt to the present situation but make sure, it does not become permanent. u dont want to stand out too much, but u dont want to mingle too much until u loose ur own identity... sigh...

some times, people can be sooooooooo FUCKING egoistic!!!! i mean, they can say mean things to us and we are supposed to take it as a joke but when we reply back with answers that are not even mildly insulting, they get soooooo over the top. certain things are meant to be taken with a pinch of salt, man...

and yes, i (or more like somebody whom i know) have this huge issue with class. can u become classy by acting know-it-all and having expensive tastes? u should look around urself first, right? if the people whom u surround urself with are from the dumps(or the likes), then, u cant pretend to be classy as well, right? there is a qoute, show me ur frens and i will tell what kind of person u r... i wish somebody will that to that person. and i have no choice but to associate myself with that person... its not just me but someone else thinks its degrading and a waste of time to be hanging around the group of them.. really, its time that i associated my self with some people of my own caliber.

Trying to act all posh and high-class when that person has nothing to his/her name except for looks... sigh, what kind of a world is this... such a peacock!! and guess what? damn i sooooooo wanna expose that person's identity now but i cant.... that person's family is one screwed family too... with the roles reversed and the family's respect down the drain amongst the others... and that person does not even care about that... to that person (lets call him/her X), to X all he/she can be bothered about is maintaining that posh image of his/hers. i mean, the nick for X which X named it himself/herself is SOOOO conceited. i am bursting with anger now!!! what right does X have to be so proud of himself/herself?? such a vain display of narcissm... haiz... really, so the question now is, can one be of class due to behaviour alone? doesnt one's background be concrete enough for that as well??

hey. i am finally back in the office... not that i actually have one.. oh wells, i am just soooo sleepy right now that i want to crawl back to my sty and go to slumberland... lol... oh ya, i am currently piglet. my very FRIENDLY colleagues named me piglet ( though they did name themselves bunny and roo too) hehe.. so ya, i want to be at my sty now... aiya, dont know what to write also. anyways. oh ya, i should check out facebook. havent done so for quite some time already, i mean about a few days. ok then shall go see that, bye.