life is never without regrets

i see u crying all alone in a corner
tears streaming down ur cheeks, one at a time
u suffer to think about what u did that time
and i can only watch u from afar...

it pains for u tell about what u did then,
about how u left them all alone
when all they had was u, and only u
i try to console u, but in vain
its not ur fault i say,
we are the dolls in the hands of fate's play
but nothing can change what's already been done...

it pains me to see u cry...
tears start welling up in my eyes too
i turn away, not letting u see them
coz i dont want u to know
i regret for u too..

they loved u, u said
but alas, whats happened has happened
and its no use crying over spilt milk
only thing to calm u down, i say
life is never without regrets...

i think i probably sounded the same as X in the previous entry, bigheaded and full of myself... but one lesson that i learnt when i was in jc was that, always associate yourself with somebody of your ability of maybe even higher for u continue progressing. if not, its just down hill for you all the way... its not wrong to change yourself to adapt to the present situation but make sure, it does not become permanent. u dont want to stand out too much, but u dont want to mingle too much until u loose ur own identity... sigh...

some times, people can be sooooooooo FUCKING egoistic!!!! i mean, they can say mean things to us and we are supposed to take it as a joke but when we reply back with answers that are not even mildly insulting, they get soooooo over the top. certain things are meant to be taken with a pinch of salt, man...

and yes, i (or more like somebody whom i know) have this huge issue with class. can u become classy by acting know-it-all and having expensive tastes? u should look around urself first, right? if the people whom u surround urself with are from the dumps(or the likes), then, u cant pretend to be classy as well, right? there is a qoute, show me ur frens and i will tell what kind of person u r... i wish somebody will that to that person. and i have no choice but to associate myself with that person... its not just me but someone else thinks its degrading and a waste of time to be hanging around the group of them.. really, its time that i associated my self with some people of my own caliber.

Trying to act all posh and high-class when that person has nothing to his/her name except for looks... sigh, what kind of a world is this... such a peacock!! and guess what? damn i sooooooo wanna expose that person's identity now but i cant.... that person's family is one screwed family too... with the roles reversed and the family's respect down the drain amongst the others... and that person does not even care about that... to that person (lets call him/her X), to X all he/she can be bothered about is maintaining that posh image of his/hers. i mean, the nick for X which X named it himself/herself is SOOOO conceited. i am bursting with anger now!!! what right does X have to be so proud of himself/herself?? such a vain display of narcissm... haiz... really, so the question now is, can one be of class due to behaviour alone? doesnt one's background be concrete enough for that as well??

hey. i am finally back in the office... not that i actually have one.. oh wells, i am just soooo sleepy right now that i want to crawl back to my sty and go to slumberland... lol... oh ya, i am currently piglet. my very FRIENDLY colleagues named me piglet ( though they did name themselves bunny and roo too) hehe.. so ya, i want to be at my sty now... aiya, dont know what to write also. anyways. oh ya, i should check out facebook. havent done so for quite some time already, i mean about a few days. ok then shall go see that, bye.

You and I...

i have what it takes... to be what you want...
i think i know... what you want in me...

lets go tour the world, see whats in store for us...
maybe you would realise then, that there is nothing more i could do for you..
u've got to help yourself, be the man you want to be
all this is nothing if u dont put in the effort.
i can force but nothin' s gonna change if u dont try yourself
oohhh... let me be the support for you,
lean on me when u need help
i will stay beside u, not going anywhere
dont worry , my dear...

lets play a game of love,
a game where no ones wins
both of us will loose together
but we'll find joy in it...
as those befo_re us
i 'll tell you what to do and you will the same with me

be together forever, as i said
i have what it takes... to be what you want...
i think i know... what you want in me...
i will stay beside u, not going anywhere
dont worry , my dear...

nothing

whatever do i see you for
when all you do is make me cry
whatever do i hear you for
when all you do is make me sad

oh, what has life come to be
i'm dreading every second
its better to be off dead!!!
nothing that i do has succeeded
nothing that i wish has come true
nothin' nothin' ... life has come to nothin'

u came in sometime...
i thought hope was revived
soon the world was much better
i felt good for the first time ever...

roses started blooming and
the wind started blowing
the love was felt all over
every day was a shiny shiny beautiful day...

but then came the sorrow bit...
i saw you with another girl
hanging around the mall,
yeah with your hands in her pants

i broke into a million pieces
right there and then,
i tried to call you, find you somehow
but all you did was ignore me to the end..

oh,what has life come to be
i'm dreading every second
its better to be off dead!!!
nothing that i do has succeeded
nothing that i wish has come true
nothin' nothin' ... life has come to nothin'

i am going down..
forever going down..
friends and family, i own none
i am going down.

my only hope has shattered away..

hey... very sleepy right now, just had lunch. so, as an indian i only its right that i follow my traditions and sleep after i have my lunch.. lol..=) anyways, there is this security guard downstairs that really reminds of a clown, everytime we look at him, he always makes us laugh.. lol.. he is one funny guy.

these few days have been quite busy, had no time to blog at all at work. which is quite good actually, considering that i was complaining i had nothing to do previously. but ok, back to the point, i am exoecting a level results o be out this week, since cny was last week. but there have been rumours that its going to be out only before march, that will be too late already. aiya. i was all pschyed up for my results but now they delay it again... i am really scared now. dont know how i did. u know, just yesterday i found out that lx had actually applied to imperial college and ucl and got waitlisted!! that naughty gal ah... never tell us anything, just act so slow infront of us... but damn smart inside. wish i was like lx, then wont have to worry for a levels at all.

oh, and i saw sherwin the o ther day when i went out for dinner with my cousins at a jap rest. guess what?? he was bald... lol.. i mean obviously u would have guessed that since to army and all.. anyways, i smsed lx immediately and she replied back saying OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!! rofl lmao, she was really shocked to hear that, she was like 'how is looking right now?' hehe, he really did change a lot... ok right now i am just crapping since i have nothing else to talk about, but i got to keep writing something to prevent myself from falling asleep. sigh... sleep is something you can never fight with, even when there is an earthquake going on, or a volcano eruption nearby, u will still continue to sleep if your body tells you to. all right, i think i better go now. oh wait, my mum is cooking CRAB today!!! i am so happy, can go home to a nice hearty dinner. oh wells, ttyl later. wait that must be ttml. (talk to me later) lol... i should get myself some crutches, i am soooooo lame!!! (lol, that was lame). enough of my crappiness... toodles.

yo! i am at office now, oh wells, nothing much to do now also... but the past 2 days have been quite busy. had to photocopy alot of stuff. was in front of the photocopy machine the whole day.
sigh... feeling very bored now. but u noe, hazel is leaving soon... aiya, in a damn crappy mood now, dont feel like writing much now, maybe later...